School and My Own Business: PCH Week Four

PCH 7,000 a Week Set For Life
Week four a full month of an estimated $21,000 and wow to think about that. It is a lot of money when you are living off food stamps and your grandmother. So here is hoping that I can get this and put it to good use. Considering there are many people who do not even make that in a year and if I won I would get it each month, It is just wow.
A dream and a wish all wrapped into one and I know that I will not let it go to my head. If the day comes I will put each week into more than myself.

Foundation for the Future
Once week four shows up I will look into using it to start a foundation of learning and businesses to share with others what I have. I would found no-profit organizations to just researching charities to donate money to. I would hire a few people and be able to offer them a decent yearly salary just off the money I get from this sweepstakes.
I would need to get some education under my belt to be able to learn what is needed to well keep track of a lot of things and well there will be a lot of work even if I am “set for life” from winning I would not just do nothing, I would do even more than I do now, a lot more.

So Much More
Like I said I would not be doing nothing I would find something to focus on and each week after this would be an adventure. I know I will splurge on thing that are not needed but the main focus I will have is to find people who need the money more than I do and make sure they can use it in a way that fits. The dream of $7,000 a week is just unfathomable, it is just too much for one person. And I will not be the only one who benefits from it so God if you see me please hear me and give me a changed to become something more.

Health and Well-being: PCH Week Three

A Dream
Yep I know this is a dream and that the odds of me winning are well, not in my favor. I do know that winning this would be a life changer, one that I welcome with open arms. I dream and I pray that I win this with all that is in me and I truly believe I deserve it.

Recap
Week one pay off bills, week two get loans for a home and vehicle. Not much but it is what is needed to get set for the future.

Health and Well-being
As for week three, I would get my health under check. I would finally go and see a doctor after more than ten years of not seeing one. I would also get both health and life insurance. So in short another short week of spending but it sets me up for a hopefully a long and healthy life. Seven thousand a week for life is going to be peace of mind that myself and people I love will well be set for life.

Fleeting Respite

Jagged, hurt and alone. I have not sentiment for self pity, but I am lost, afraid and seek guidance, someone help me, anyone. I call out in the night for some reply from any who may hear, for any who has a voice come to me and give me your thoughts your aid your love. Lost alone, never without questions I seek something, something I can not see or hear something within me that is vacant.

Whispers in my mind say that the day is not done, that I must move on from the sorrow I have in this world, for myself since I am not alone.

Night turns to day and yet the feeling of self is not lost and I am wondering what will be next, what will this day bring. Who am I to question why am I here, more questions yet no one to answer.

Fear turns into doubt and doubt into self hate I am without but I am full of more that I can imagine. Felling loneliness I ponder what is next what will be. I look to what may be and find nothing, darkness a pitch black veil have the unknown yet I sit idle and wait for the world to move by without any thought of what time is wasted, time that could be used for something more.

If I Won pch.com SET FOR LIFE

About a year ago I wrote what I would do If I Had a Million Dollars well today I am going to think and ponder on what I would do if I won http://www.pch.com/ “SET FOR LIFE”

If I Won pch.com SET FOR LIFE
As it stands I live yet I am not living. You see I just exist, I have no job, car or any real source of income. I stay with my grandmother and before that my sister. I am a waste. I take up resources that could be put to better use. I am trying to get on disability to try and climb out of this hole that I have dug myself into.

Now in the past I have worked, saved money and well had a life but things have taken a toll on me that well if with out the support of people that love me I would no be here today. Yes others have it worse and still live day by day but you know what I am not them I am me. And in my mind I am not worth anything, I have nothing to strive for nothing to reach out for. I am just – well I do not truly know -…

I have prayed for many things death being one of them. Today I pray for life and a way to live it. Approval for my disability claim would be great but today I am here to pray and ask for even more. To be set for life.

One of the first things I would do is repay the people who have been kind to me. It would not take much as true loved ones would not ask for more than they need.
Once that is set I would move on to me, an investment in myself and my future. I would learn. The things I want to learn are vast; languages, computer programming, writing, world religions, and yet that is just the start to what I want to learn. There are just too many things I want to know.

I would build upon the cash flow that I have and create a non-profit organization. I would share with others this new found wealth. I would be able to create jobs for people that I know, real jobs that have an affect on the world around not just paying them to do nothing.

Lets be real this money would be income so it would be taxed so I would not exactly have the full $7,000 lets say I end up getting $4,000 a week after all taxes are taken out. Yea that is a lot considering me and my grand mother only live of 7k a year.

So we are going to work with this 4k a week and think about how we would spend it. Nothing from above would change I would invest in myself and people I know, work to create jobs from this influx in cash that I have and well try to live a life -short and sweet- I would improve, well I hope I would but money is not a cure in fact it could cause more harm than good if not thought out on how and what you want to use it on. And getting so much so quickly would well be world changing for nearly anyone.

With the new found wealth I would buy a car, house and well a good computer setup for myself. I live and breath on the internet and if you read any of my past post you would see this. I hope and dream that I win but the chances are slim and well I am not going to hold my breath.

I have mostly rambled and yet I am not done many of you have left now and to any that is still reading this, thank you.

It is not easy to say exactly what I would do with this new found wealth. I know what I would want to do with it but to actually do it is another thing. What ifs and dreams are not reality and we never know who we are until we are put to the test. I want to say I would not succumb to greed, that I would do my best to over come my depression but we are not sure. For all I know I get this cash and well find it not enough or find that it is too much. What then? Life is harsh and well money is just one part of it. with out the people to love we are alone and to think that money will be the end all be all is just dumb. I want to live a life not buy one.

Yet I hope that I win, just to prove to myself that I am worth it. Sigh, the more I think about it the more depressed I get. I want money, I need it.

… maybe this was not a good ideal but what ever.

What Is PCH “SET FOR LIFE”?
Well it is a chance to win $7,000 a week for the rest of your life. For more info just check out there site.

Dream Life

If things where at there best or at least as good as I can get it. This is what  I would like my life to be like.

I would awake in a home that I own with someone I love next to me. I would ready myself for the day ahead one without stress or frustration. The day would consist of me doing the things that make me happy; reading a book, watching a movie or TV show, playing a game on the computer, spending time with the people I love and may other things.

I understand that his could be real if I worked if I strive to achieve this dream it will become life. I have lived for over three decades and I have not done anything to improve my well being. It is time to change time to wake up and stop dreaming and to make my life what I want it to be. Yet I can not do this alone, I need help and seek it not from any that read this but from the people that are in my life. I need to find my path and follow it to the life that I deserve.