About a year ago I wrote what I would do If I Had a Million Dollars well today I am going to think and ponder on what I would do if I won http://www.pch.com/ “SET FOR LIFE”
If I Won pch.com SET FOR LIFE
As it stands I live yet I am not living. You see I just exist, I have no job, car or any real source of income. I stay with my grandmother and before that my sister. I am a waste. I take up resources that could be put to better use. I am trying to get on disability to try and climb out of this hole that I have dug myself into.
Now in the past I have worked, saved money and well had a life but things have taken a toll on me that well if with out the support of people that love me I would no be here today. Yes others have it worse and still live day by day but you know what I am not them I am me. And in my mind I am not worth anything, I have nothing to strive for nothing to reach out for. I am just – well I do not truly know -…
I have prayed for many things death being one of them. Today I pray for life and a way to live it. Approval for my disability claim would be great but today I am here to pray and ask for even more. To be set for life.
One of the first things I would do is repay the people who have been kind to me. It would not take much as true loved ones would not ask for more than they need.
Once that is set I would move on to me, an investment in myself and my future. I would learn. The things I want to learn are vast; languages, computer programming, writing, world religions, and yet that is just the start to what I want to learn. There are just too many things I want to know.
I would build upon the cash flow that I have and create a non-profit organization. I would share with others this new found wealth. I would be able to create jobs for people that I know, real jobs that have an affect on the world around not just paying them to do nothing.
Lets be real this money would be income so it would be taxed so I would not exactly have the full $7,000 lets say I end up getting $4,000 a week after all taxes are taken out. Yea that is a lot considering me and my grand mother only live of 7k a year.
So we are going to work with this 4k a week and think about how we would spend it. Nothing from above would change I would invest in myself and people I know, work to create jobs from this influx in cash that I have and well try to live a life -short and sweet- I would improve, well I hope I would but money is not a cure in fact it could cause more harm than good if not thought out on how and what you want to use it on. And getting so much so quickly would well be world changing for nearly anyone.
With the new found wealth I would buy a car, house and well a good computer setup for myself. I live and breath on the internet and if you read any of my past post you would see this. I hope and dream that I win but the chances are slim and well I am not going to hold my breath.
I have mostly rambled and yet I am not done many of you have left now and to any that is still reading this, thank you.
It is not easy to say exactly what I would do with this new found wealth. I know what I would want to do with it but to actually do it is another thing. What ifs and dreams are not reality and we never know who we are until we are put to the test. I want to say I would not succumb to greed, that I would do my best to over come my depression but we are not sure. For all I know I get this cash and well find it not enough or find that it is too much. What then? Life is harsh and well money is just one part of it. with out the people to love we are alone and to think that money will be the end all be all is just dumb. I want to live a life not buy one.
Yet I hope that I win, just to prove to myself that I am worth it. Sigh, the more I think about it the more depressed I get. I want money, I need it.
… maybe this was not a good ideal but what ever.
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